YES my SATS are finally over :D and even though I didn't spend much time on it - I didn't even complete three quarters of that darn blue book, I did agonize about it quite a bit. I swear the book has this amazing power of lulling people (well, me anyway) to sleep and every time I flip that telephone-directory collegeboard book thing open, just staring at the seow number of mcq questions and my head feels so heavy. But its okay its over now and I'm glad I'm finally able to stow the book away and hopefully start revising for the CTs proper!

Ahh anyway it wasn't that bad, just that I woke up so late and had to chiong down all the way to bukit panjang for the exam and then got totally separated from MC and into a classroom which felt more like being in a freezer (it was so cold) for the next five hours or so. With breaks in between but I knew nobody in the classroom so it was kinda sad and I was just dying for it to just end. And I just had to keep dropping my eraser, my pencils, my paper and what not - every time I bent down to pick it up my table and chair would screech so loudly and I felt like all this unfriendly faces were on me hahaha but I guess I was just being paranoid. Whew. Yay. Its over. Yay yay yay!

Could it be?

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't means that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Till they're before your eyes

I'll come back when you call me, no need to say goodbye.

GREAT. Now all the messages I saved in my phone and stuff has been completely OBLITERATED by the stupid sony ericsson software problem. REALLY. Just awesome. As if I needed that to happen again. GRR!

Aside from that, training was kinda tough today but I enjoyed the team bonding session we had afterwards haha even though there wasn't much bonding involved since we all bought our lunch into the cinema and ate with our eyes on the screen but you know it was fun anyway :D I had a good time squabbling with SS and talking to the rest and sharing the kfc melts with Enid and Narnia was not bad either. Oh. And I bought a new pair of shoes today so I'm feeling quite dumdeedeedumdily happy except for the dwindling balance in my bank account and of course the whole problem with my phone. But I hope its better now. It better be!!!! (I had to call about a million service desk helplines!)

The past few days have been great - haha if not a stark reminder on how I really should be using them to study instead. Class chalet and food prep's at mama chicken's was so much fun, despite my weird encounter at the end. Chopping and skewering all the food to be barbecued and later enjoying the fruits of our labour at the nice and spacious chalet was great. Hahaha and playing mahjong after so long together and later watching the 9 o'clock show. And its times like these you can't help but realise that the two years we'll be spending together as a class is actually ending. Just a few months more and we'd all be going our separate ways! But really I love A13. And I'm looking forward to more class gatherings like these even when the a levels are over. Heh and friday after tuition with Meiyi and Abc I met Dee for our usual friday night with our favourite volcano ramen and soft shell crab at ajisen we caught up with each other and saving our movieday for some day next week instead.

In MC's room after food prep :D


07A13 with the juniors and the teachers!


Just today rummaging through my drawers which are packed to the max with all these random scraps of paper I threw inside(haha don't freak, ocd Hwee) I found a note Audrey and I wrote on leap year day this year depicting what the situation would be like on the next leap year day and haha in a span of just three months so much have changed but not our friendship of course. Gosh I really wonder what it'd be like FOUR whole years from now :D

Yesterday's rainy afternoon was spent with Hwee shopping in town which was so crowded whilst making our way through the underpass we nearly suffocated to our deaths but haha it was a lot of fun drinking vitamin tablet smoothies and starbucks afterwards even when we'd really would've preferred paopaochar! Heh Hwee I'm glad we decided to go out on a whim - I needed it, but I didn't need the dress and I still feel guilty for spending heh!

Alrighty tea-time here at home, gotta go :) Bye!

Some people find it really really easy to be straightforward and express how they feel - some do it with the right amount of tact whilst others come across just being unnecessarily evil.. these days I'm beginning to find it more and more difficult to simply tell it like it is. But I'd rather bottle it up than risk hurting anyone (even if some of them are incorrigible). Or maybe I'm just afraid? I don't know. Friendships can be so fragile sometimes. It scares me there's always so much at stake. I don't wanna lose anything. Ever.

You've been zapped

Not really sure where to begin, but today's the first real day of the June term break and I'm actually feeling at loss at what to do :D should I start studying for the common tests(ok this is rhetorical because I SHOULD, especially with my SATS just next week) and if I do, how do I go about doing it? AHH I'd just really like to be spending the entire day just bumming out watching telly, going out for coffee and doing what I like to do.. After spending the past 4 days at taonan facilitating the kids at Camp Magica in Taonan, I'm feeling a tad bit washed out and I deserve a break.

Not sure if I'd ever do it again, but taking care of the kids was really quite emotionally taxing haha to say the least. I loved the kids in my group. Well most anyway, with the exception of Miss Horoscope haha who was SUCH a brat. And they were all too cute. But still it definitely wasn't easy taking them through the camp, trying my best to be tolerant and what not. Still it'll be an experience I'll always always remember.




Well so my holidays begins here :D Sort of anyway. Nearly 4 weeks of training, mugging(hopefully) and stuff to fit in between. I guess I need it haha and I hope everything sails smoothly - I'm just not sure if I can deal with big problems in my life right now. There's too much going on, and if one thing screws up - I don't think I'll be able to handle it.

OK swim meet in two weeks - ANT to infinity and beyond!

Sometimes ending is the only place to start

Shifting back from lj(turnanotherpage.livejournal.com) - not for any one reason in particular, I suppose I'm just more of a bloggirl ok haha sorry for the lame pun but it just feels a little bit more.. I don't know, 'right' here. If there's even a 'right'. Haha. So its back here. Maybe. Sometimes I don't even know why I still blog, what draws me back everytime but ahh anyway..

Term 2's over just like that and its been pretty eventful with the match supports and performances and trainings and deedays and with all that going on trying to fit in just getting the homework done. Sort of a blur how it all just passed by, but towards the end of the term my mood just kinda dipped a little bit. I'm glad the holidays are here, as much as I love school sometimes I guess I just get tired of the school me - haha like I just needed somebody to cut me some slack and not always having to be afraid of not doing things right. And too much of something is never really good. With school out I have the time again to do things when I want to, when I need to and just not be bounded to some tiring daily routine thing.

Yeah but the half the year's nearly gone and gee, its been different from how I expected it to be. Very different to be honest - maybe its a good thing? I wouldn't know really but since what's meant to be is meant to be. So let God take the wheel and I'll just follow follow, and just be thankful when I get through the day feeling happy :) With friends around its always easy to be okay.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I can't help but feel so blessed.

Well so there goes term 2. Whew. Again. Ten weeks gone by and some things hasn't changed a bit whilst other things have by leaps and bounds and I'm just taking each day as it comes :) A few months more and once a levels are over, everything will really change! I'm sure of that, and a teeny wee bit of me is looking forward but for most part, I just wish to stay in JC. Just a bit longer would be good. Haha. Its all passing by way way way too fast.

Until we leave this behind

I missed you yesterday. I missed you today. I'll miss you tomorrow, everyday, maybe forever. Maybe always.

shifted

Think I need a bottle with a genie in it

I wish it was January all over again and that it didn't have to pass so quickly. I wish my February wasn't about all the stupid things I let it revolve around. And I wish that with March just ahead and the many many months left in this year - I wish to be happy, and I wish that I wouldn't be wishing because I'd be so damn happy even wishing wouldn't make a difference. Let me LIVE it!

(and I wish common tests wasn't just three days away.)

Fast-forward two weeks please - I have no idea how I'm gonna be able to cope till then :(

So. So. So tired. And I haven't even started on preparation for the tests at all, just doing all the homework we have. Lately life has been revolving around school and nothing else. Not that it hasn't been all fun with vday and what not, but I'm all ready to take a break with the march holidays looming near!

I miss bus rides with Abc to cityhall and we'll watch the world walk by while savouring azabu sabo ice cream. I miss all the pepper lunch detox sessions(hahaha) with Jac, Hwee and the other girls almost every thursday last year. And most of all, I miss hanging out during the holidays - long hours spent at starbucks when they sold the christmas special toffeenut latte, poring over books in kinokuniya and borders... with amazing company everytime. I miss the many dinners at east coast and siglap and our long walks to bus stops, our movie dates and failure bowling games. I miss hunting around in concourse and beach road and long bus wait(more than 45 minutes and we couldn't get on because it was too packed, we were both ready to throttle iris) on new year's eve, and not-really-studying at bugis the next day hahaha. I miss preparing for orientation. I miss the car rides Jon would take me on. I miss the movie marathons Dee and I would go on where we'd binge on lots of food and feel lazy and happy. I could go on forever!

I miss I miss I really miss it all :) Just the freedom of having the entire day free. The kind where there's no need to plan, days which work out when everything is done on impulse and spontaneously. Ahhhhh and when common tests are over. We'll have one glorious glorious week of that!