Some people find it really really easy to be straightforward and express how they feel - some do it with the right amount of tact whilst others come across just being unnecessarily evil.. these days I'm beginning to find it more and more difficult to simply tell it like it is. But I'd rather bottle it up than risk hurting anyone (even if some of them are incorrigible). Or maybe I'm just afraid? I don't know. Friendships can be so fragile sometimes. It scares me there's always so much at stake. I don't wanna lose anything. Ever.

You've been zapped

Not really sure where to begin, but today's the first real day of the June term break and I'm actually feeling at loss at what to do :D should I start studying for the common tests(ok this is rhetorical because I SHOULD, especially with my SATS just next week) and if I do, how do I go about doing it? AHH I'd just really like to be spending the entire day just bumming out watching telly, going out for coffee and doing what I like to do.. After spending the past 4 days at taonan facilitating the kids at Camp Magica in Taonan, I'm feeling a tad bit washed out and I deserve a break.

Not sure if I'd ever do it again, but taking care of the kids was really quite emotionally taxing haha to say the least. I loved the kids in my group. Well most anyway, with the exception of Miss Horoscope haha who was SUCH a brat. And they were all too cute. But still it definitely wasn't easy taking them through the camp, trying my best to be tolerant and what not. Still it'll be an experience I'll always always remember.




Well so my holidays begins here :D Sort of anyway. Nearly 4 weeks of training, mugging(hopefully) and stuff to fit in between. I guess I need it haha and I hope everything sails smoothly - I'm just not sure if I can deal with big problems in my life right now. There's too much going on, and if one thing screws up - I don't think I'll be able to handle it.

OK swim meet in two weeks - ANT to infinity and beyond!

Sometimes ending is the only place to start

Shifting back from lj(turnanotherpage.livejournal.com) - not for any one reason in particular, I suppose I'm just more of a bloggirl ok haha sorry for the lame pun but it just feels a little bit more.. I don't know, 'right' here. If there's even a 'right'. Haha. So its back here. Maybe. Sometimes I don't even know why I still blog, what draws me back everytime but ahh anyway..

Term 2's over just like that and its been pretty eventful with the match supports and performances and trainings and deedays and with all that going on trying to fit in just getting the homework done. Sort of a blur how it all just passed by, but towards the end of the term my mood just kinda dipped a little bit. I'm glad the holidays are here, as much as I love school sometimes I guess I just get tired of the school me - haha like I just needed somebody to cut me some slack and not always having to be afraid of not doing things right. And too much of something is never really good. With school out I have the time again to do things when I want to, when I need to and just not be bounded to some tiring daily routine thing.

Yeah but the half the year's nearly gone and gee, its been different from how I expected it to be. Very different to be honest - maybe its a good thing? I wouldn't know really but since what's meant to be is meant to be. So let God take the wheel and I'll just follow follow, and just be thankful when I get through the day feeling happy :) With friends around its always easy to be okay.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I can't help but feel so blessed.

Well so there goes term 2. Whew. Again. Ten weeks gone by and some things hasn't changed a bit whilst other things have by leaps and bounds and I'm just taking each day as it comes :) A few months more and once a levels are over, everything will really change! I'm sure of that, and a teeny wee bit of me is looking forward but for most part, I just wish to stay in JC. Just a bit longer would be good. Haha. Its all passing by way way way too fast.

Until we leave this behind

I missed you yesterday. I missed you today. I'll miss you tomorrow, everyday, maybe forever. Maybe always.