Don't wanna mess up mess up!

If there's just one more person who asks me when are a level results coming out and what i'm gonna do after that (i have no idea yikes!!!!!) this CNY, i might just flip out and die from a panic attack already! Ok it isn't really all that bad, but its something pressing upon my shoulders which i can't seem to shrug off. I suppose the reason why i don't really want to let myself be far sighted on this is because i just don't dare to.. what if i end up feeling too disappointed? Or what if i let anyone down? Does anyone know what i mean? I've never been someone who likes things to be definite, ok - fickle's the word but its me, and i want to have a change of heart whenever i want to and not be judged for it :( :)

Other than that, this chinese new year has been actually really really nice, not that i do much visiting or anything but its especially nice being with my dad mum and jon when everyone is in particularly high spirits heh.

Oh and last night when i was at sr gardens haha i bumped into seven of the ten, and i tell you my dear a13 girlies i couldn't recognise them because the the guys either have shaved heads or longish hair!!! Really! It was serious stunburger haha when syaz called me and told me to 'look right' and there i saw all of them gathered around one table.. i miss a13 i miss a13 i miss a13 and it was really very nice seeing everyone and i managed to talk to them for a little bit but then i had to go.

Happy CNY you guys!

I miss the tote-bagging!

It feels funny not seeing you girls 5 days a week, not being seated in a single row every morning during assembly trying to talk even then :) and either spending all our free time in the canteen or in the concourse in between tutorials and lectures talking about the weirdest things with many of our conversations revolving around food! And wednesday lunches at parkway before cca and all the studying we did together before a levels. I miss being in vj uniform and having school fill my everydays, and i miss you all being constantly around even though i'm really glad we manage to meet pretty often.

Today i was supposed to meet mc for lunch but even before cny has started i'm down with a horrible sore throat (people at the office were stuffing me with goodies on my first day back!) and was feeling too sick to go out. And i'm so tempted to not work today but my supervisor quite forcefully reminded me on tuesday that the budget's gonna be out tomorrow so its very very very important to be there. So she says but i feel like i'm doing less by helping out sometimes because i don't know so much...

Yes so i gotta be at the office in half and hour, which means i need to go pick out an outfit sigh and i better get going so bye bye hope you guys are all ok at work!

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
...
Its a love story baby just say yes.

Short-lived escape

Although i've been back just three days really, i feel so seeped into familiarity here already that it feels almost like i haven't left at all. Now looking at the pictures its a nice fuzzy reminder of every moment spent :)

There's only so long we could stay in a place like california, where everything seems to take on a sort of dreamy sun-dozed feel. I wish i could snap my fingers and go right back to santa monica and run on the cold cold sand with dee every time something i don't feel like dealing with takes shape here at home. But i can't, now my vacation is truly over. And now i'm starting to miss everything so much more, stuffing my face with cheetos, beef jerky; and i miss pris su and our late night chit chats.. most of all i guess i miss being able to not address things right away because of the huge distance in between and the 16 hour time difference with reality. Grr!

No place like Singapore!

I'm back :) its really nice to be home again, home to the warmth (and humidity boo) of sunny island singapore!!!! Two weeks away, i probably could've stayed longer because its so beautiful there, but then again i can't possibly be more disconnected that i already am from everything although it was great being far away from it all for a while. I loved it in california, i loved spending so much time with susu pris again and dee everyday! And a whole lot more. The weather - freezing with the wind in san francisco, snow in lake tahoe, warm sunshine in LA; also the food, eating and liking just about everything; the shopping with its variety and low low low prices whee; and the scenery from the snow mountains to the beautiful architecture to the happy laid back feel of everything. Yes yes yes it was amazing, and there's so much more to say but for now let me just kick start my life back here in singapore with adult ez link fare hahaha (which just sucks). Kinda jet lagged but i miss being around home so i'm gonna get out now. Laterrr!

And a13 girls can't wait for saturday!