Duffy and friends in Japan

Can't capture everything in 5 pictures but yeah love Japan love Tokyo love my mum hehe and my cousins and of course Duffy.

Konichiwa!

I'm back from Japan! And i know i say this each time after i travel, but i love Tokyo. I love love love Tokyo. I love the buzz of the city :) everything is too fast-paced, massive crowds everywhere, too many food places to choose from, train lines in nearly every different colour. Its so vibrant so alive haha and just so intense i like how i'm nearly dizzy from the excitement of it all. And not just how densely urban it is - everything new and modern seems transposed on the old. Like this book on Japan i bought at the airport describes it be; 'the past lives on in japan, as background to the warpings of the present'.. hahaha ok kinda corny, but its true! Hehehe i'm raving, but the food, the beautifully dressed people, the amazing shopping, the culture.. what a great city! Haha now i know what mc means everything she goes on and on about Japan. Me too me too me too! The only thing sad was how exorbitant prices are there. I can't believe in one 500 yen coin i'm spending $7.50 but because its in a coin its so easy to squander it all..

One hand on the steering wheel the other on my heart...

This year has been a lot about changes and new things, feeling very much like i'm perched on a balancing beam as if i'm about to topple the very next moment. Like i wanna take a step forward, but i'm apprehensive about falling, and i'm struggling to find even just an ounce of stability. And very often i find myself missing what's past. Missing last year and everything about 2008 when things were so much less confusing. Nothing seem to falls into place easily these days, there's always so much figuring out to do.

But i think i'm done with being obsessively retrospective. And in that i guess i mean sometimes yearning for everything to be like how they used to be.. and now i can't put off bidding a quiet goodbye to what's already gone. Which sort of tugs my heart still, but hey, i can't be adrift forever either. Besides, in many ways 2009 has been wonderful and really scary all at the same time.. and now i'm beginning to feel that the changes this year brought are really surprises hehe.

I really hope this good feeling lasts :)

Gotta love the zoo

My amazing ltb groupmates make amazing friends too!! :D We had a blast at the zoo which is such a great place to be, a blast driving around (i got to drive too although they were all screaming at me -_- haha), a blast just hanging out hehe - project grin was always way more than just all work and no play. I love grinners!

There were so many amazing things about vj, but confirm stamp chop definitely for sure to me hehe you a13 girls top the list. Haha i know being in uni and all everyone just seems so over their jc times.. but for me at least i still constantly remember random stuff like how great it was bumming around in the concourse and sitting in the canteen. I know i probably bore all my new friends with happy vj anecdotes haha. I know i've left vj for more than a year, but i can't help but miss it a whole lot still. But the best part of vj - besides all the memories and everything, its you 7 girls!

I like how we all cram in front of meiyi's tiny webcam just to skype hwee. And that how even though hwee you're so far away we miss you so much and worry for you a lot. I like how we all have the same (weird) sense of humour, and how we repeat our stories 1000 times because our group is so big and because some of us are just deaf haha. I like how i really be myself with you all even when i'm cranky and tired or even when i'm just super happy! I like how we cheer for leow when she plays floorball at 3am in the morning. And how we laugh at meiyi's "pink" pillow hehe. And yeah definitely jac's 'resilience of character' (quoting abc here hahahaha). How we can sprawl around with our feet up in the air hehe vera!! And despite all the new people who weave in and out of our lives, and how some of our lives have diverged in different paths, i like how together we're still the same. And how we can share bits of our new lives and still be connected by times of old! Although it was hard speaking a lot throughout the whole of our sometimes sucky and yet super eventful and fun sem 1, i just think its so great knowing i have you girls to fall back on and share things with. Oh and thank you so much jac for being side by side with me all the way through sem 1 and supporting me whenever and just being so awesome..

I love you all.. you girls are amazing :)