When I feel like I'm a million and one miles away..

Gracious God, my heart renew
Make my spirit right and true
Thy salvation's joy impart
Steadfast make my willing heart
Broken, humbled to the dust
By Thy wrath and judgement just
Let my contrite heart rejoice
And in gladness hear Thy voice

What is it about love that makes it so indispensable?

Yeah so its Friday and half-day in school but I'm not even there because I decided to sleep in :D heh heh I just love being all snuggly and warm under the blankets with this weather - dark clouds looming and the cold cold breeze coming in through the windows(but not when all my papers get strewn all over the floor!!). The only thing is I wish I could've trained today but I'll make up for it by swimming during the weekend. I promise!

I'm supposed to be starting on my History essay now but I'm not in a mood to anyway. Yesterday after school I had to dash down from school to meet Pris at Raffles City(the last time we're going to meet in a long while and she decides to be early! Haha). I'm really going to miss you Susu-dang - no one amuses me more than you do ;) heh heh and we did some shopping, hunting for my new shoes and after trying on a zillion pairs I finally settled for my very new, very snazzy and cool-looking asics!



Although it kind of intimidates me. I mean what if I can't do my part as a good owner and use it well? Haha no I'm serious its like I have no reason not to run. And even though right now it makes me feel as if I could complete a ten-mile run(LOL I can never understand why people like to torture themselves that way) I know when I slip them on and actually start running I can probably only do so for maybe 500 metres. Haha oh well we'll see. But really, thanks alot Susu for snickering super loudly when the salesman asked me what distance I usually cover when I run(which I never, ever do). I was totally mortified!

Haha but we had a great dinner together, ran in to some people, embarrassed ourselves at Mango when Pris walked out with a skirt in her hand(that she already paid for but didn't want a bag) and the beeper just HAD to beep. And everyone who knows Pris knows how suspicious she can look - haha like a potential shoplifter but oh nvm. I'm kidding! Marche in Suntec has closed down - sadly enough we had no idea until we trod on our tired feet all the way there. So we made do with Food Republic which was surprisingly pretty good. But Hokkien Mee for 8 dollars is ridiculous!!

Yeah and that sums up the last time I'm going to meet Priscila Juli Angriawan before July 2008. Its a scary thought but I'm feeling so excited for you Susu! No more shuffling to-and-fro by plane anymore :( And we'll keep in touch. Always. Web-cam and phone calls and letters and emails... I promise! I'll miss you very much <3

School was really great yesterday, though I felt really cranky - who wouldn't be after 7 periods with no break at all?! But heh heh there was this PAE atmosphere and we were all being so friendly albeit a little awkward but I really liked it. So all through lit lesson(which is no lit lesson, as Lucas would say lol) we tossed food/stuff at each other on facebook while some of the girls and the guys played with the PSP. Haha and man I sure learnt a whole lot about Fitzgerald and The Great Gatsby.

Our non-existent lit lesson



After school, as if to make up for Mr. Harris' absence we took pictures with his picture right by the v-block staircase landing on the second floor. Heh that was fun :D





Yesterday was really one hell of a day - fun and a period of hmm, detente (haha) with GS which I hope lasts. But it was super un-productive as well. And now I'm finally going to start on my History essay or it'll never be done :D

Hwee, we're all missing you!

TTFN.

Tuesday is over! Three more days to the weekend :D I'm feeling so worn out already. School can be so trying.. Especially with people like GS - what a thorn in the flesh ZZZZ

Never-mind. Think Way Back into Love and I bet I can even throw my arms around GS(eeks OK I take that back) because it leaves me feeling so zen and at peace with the world.... Heh but when the song stops my evil side will emerge and mwahaha!!

(but still not as evil as Jac's desire for the wobbling fan to fall right on him LOL)

Heh so I woke up really early this morning at 6.45 am, took a quick shower and dashed off to J8 to collect my Harry Potter book :D Queued in line and gave the guy (who was dressed like a witch, wore a blonde wig and looked uber weird) my faded proof-of-purchase receipt and then he handed my The book! And duh of course I read the last chapter first like I usually do. I like spoilers, so what!! If I didn't read the end I'll be feeling really antsy about the story and I'd scan through the whole book without really really reading it.

So by one pm I was done and feeling extremely satisfied :D Deathly Hallows was really action-packed from beginning to end, and it didn't disappoint like the Half-Blood Prince did (for me anyway). The ending was pretty fulfilling (though the last chapter was too cliche really!) and every question was answered... Heh sure there were some flaws here and there but overall I'm glad it turned out this way. I guess I was kind of expecting to be disappointed.. since after Goblet of Fire the Order of the Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince weren't great at all. But its all over now! I still remember reading The Philosopher's Stone at primary three. Its been 8 years since and the whole series has finally ended :(

But I guess it was time for it to end as well. Its sad that they won't any books to look forward to anymore. From Harry's first fight(with the troll in the bathroom!) to his last duel with Voldy; from Dobby to Winky to Kreacher; from Cho(ew) to Ginny(also ewww) and the special friendship he shared with Hermione and Ron, Sirius and Lupin and Hagrid and Dumbledore its been one hell of a journey :D The good, the bad, the happy and the sad - its been there done that!

Anyway went out with my dearest Priscila (who is back again! Really that girl takes plane flights like taxi rides) but this time is really gonna be her last time before she heads to the states. I'll really miss you susu dang! Met up with Mel, Lydia, Siong, Samuel and Alvin as well and we had dinner at Wheelock.



We had a good time but sometimes I cannot help but feel as if we're drifting apart. Nothing grave of course but I just feel that all of us have changed one way or another, without really realising it..

The thing is with bestfriends - you need to know they'll always be there for you. In times when things don't go right, you'll just know you'd be okay once you confide in them . Always. Like with Su-su and Dee <3



"They shouldn't have called it "It's a Wonderful Life," they should have called it "It's a sucky life and just when you think it can't suck any more it does." Phoebe in F.R.I.E.N.D.S

So today was Racial Harmony Day in school. Nope I didn't wear a costume. Nope it wasn't that big a deal like how it used to be back in Peirce. The skits were funny but we didn't have the day off... sadly but haha school was slack anyway.

This picture was taken last year(I look hideous!!) with Lydia, Yang Jun Veggie and Chrissy-Poo in the quadrangle right by the ugly fountain filled with algae. Ha. How I miss the way we snapped a zillion pictures, running about up and down the stairs taking photos with anyone we could find :D It was one of the bestest days in Peirce ever. The kind I'll never forget. Especially the effort we put in painting the 4e1 banner and everything else. Heh and I kind of miss my braces.... OK no I don't. Retainers are bad enough.

Yeap and so Racial Harmony Day was really different this year. Kind of sad because I expected it to be a quite a big occasion but oh well. There's always next year! And I promise I'll dress up then. But school was fun as usual - heh with hightops and the variety of acronyms we love(lol Vera and Hwee!) but as usual GS was being a total pain in the ass. Sob. Never mind. If looks could kill I'd be dead ten times over with those narrow-eyed looks I received today but I've learned that ignorance is bliss :D

Training after school was really tough today (considering the fact that I haven't exerted myself for a very long time, with the nationals and all) and now I am so tired and my whole body is aching so bad :( and I know i should have pushed myself harder. But I am still so tired right after this I'm going to get a nice warm shower and plop in my bed and sleepzzzz.......

Because!!! Harry Potter is out tomorrow! And I'm going to go at 7 to collect it :D I can't wait. If Harry dies in the end I'll be like #&*#(@&$ but I guess if he doesn't die it'll be so cliche. Too cliche.. Haha we'll just see then!

The weekends are finally here! :D :D :D


"O the sense of distance and disparity that came upon me, and the inaccessibility that came about her!" - Pip, Great Expectations

Here's what I need: Ice-cream but with rainbow sprinkles on top. And preferably not runny. The beach! I miss being at the beach.. Miss being under the sun with squishy sand between my toes.

Think Bali in December... :D

Anyway bubble tea(mango milk with pearls) with Jac and Hwee made my day!

But anyway enough day-dreaming. I've spent too much time mooching around online. Back to homeworking.

EOM or read it in reverse MOE either way they suck. Sob.


Do you see me too?

Hi Ants is back (after disappearing from the blogging world for er, 2 weeks I think haha).

Well so much has happened lately I don't even know where to start. Life is just so complicated. I hate this word because all it makes me think of is whiny-avril singing BUT it is so apt!

When I was primary one life WAS already complicated. Think large Hello-Kitty red schoolbag(ugh) which progressed to the luggage trolley bag(double ugh) and my stinky partner stealing my favourite eraser from my too-cool magnetic pencilcase. Then I thought being primary six life would be so easyyyyyyyy like how the other p6 people looked struttiing around.

NOT. Zzz life got progressively worse with more homework and stupid PSLE. So complicated, choosing schools(hahaha!Cedar was my first choice, believe it or not) and stuff. Got posted to Peirce and though my dreams were smashed(drama, but really lor) I looked forward to being Sec 3 because honestly, the Sec 3 councillors(which totally gross me out now) made Sec 3 look so fun.

Then when I was Sec 3 - things did seem to get a little better. With the OPC New Zealand trip and ern and church, life was going pretty well and Peirce was great :D but you know life, being complicated of course, never leaves you satisfied. So I wanted more! JC seemed so alluring. Sure, I heard of the stress and everything - but duh the idealist in me made me think being J1 I'll be cool enough to handle it.

HAHA. Ok so here I am. JC 1. Turning seventeen in a few months.. Heh I don't feel the least bit cool. My life IS pretty pathetic. My results were eye-poppingly ghastly(so my Dad says). But the great thing is - I've realised that life IS complicated :D and I can also see now that life won't get any easier.

At least the good times make up for it. My family, my friends... the happy times <3 Growing older won't make life any easier but I guess it does allow us to appreciate the good times more. And even though the bad times hit us harder, the good ones get better. I hope. Besides, even when the bad times get badder, just "move along" like I was told :( Sniff

But anyway I'm going to forget everything and really just "move along". And keep the dreams of course :D thanks Hwee - i love our totally-super-idealistic lecture hall chit-chats. They can't get any better. Heh at least I'm sure SOME of it will come true this time wheee :D

And I'm in a pretty good place in life now. I like school a lot. I love VJ and I love the girls at school - thanks for making my days so great girls! Lessons are going well and even though my results pretty much suck, at least I'm learning a lesson from it. Haha. We'll see that from promos. And now that I'm free from any responsibilities I'm no longer tied down. Its me. Alone now.. It can't be all that bad!

Don't want to ask anymore questions. Like my title(which I saw on a card in Borders!) Chocolate is THE answer to everything :D

And I am looking forward to seeing Pris on Saturday and Dee hopefully tomorrow!

OK my life(so complicated) rocks :D :D :D

Hi world, h&h Ants is back.