I hate goodbyes :(

Sniff. Missing you girls very very very very much. And a13 too.

When we went to send hwee off at the airport, i felt like a crumbling cookie :( i think i've been trying desperately to shove whatever negative thoughts right to the back of my mind, but i guess yesterday i kinda just missed how things used to be and even worse jac and i just couldn't stop the waterworks. And i think we've been holding it all in, but its just almost too much to take. I'm really really really tired... and there's just no way i can exaggerate how bad it gets sometimes. There's really no light at the end of this tunnel and i'm stumbling with each step i take.

Help needed.

AND the weekend's gone by again, just like that. Hahaha its been one of the best weekends since school has started which really wrapped up an awesome week 4. Heh i don't think i'm getting any better on the work front, i think i'm just starting to get used to the fast pace and all the new friends and everything. Its hard to leave the cozy cocoon TBG created while we were in vj.. missing the girls dearly but i can't help but somehow still feel quite connected to you guys. I don't think i wanna be at anywhere else except here. Haha. Its been really tough i gotta admit, and sometimes i really feel like i'm on the verge of breaking down from stress - yup and its only been 4 weeks; but smu is moulding me into one tough cookie. Hehe. Bring on week 5! I love school i hate school i really can't decide; but haha the earth keeps spinning the hours keep passing gotta keep going. Whew.

Hmmm there's really been a whole lot going on and everything's changing - some in ways that kinda hurt but i guess its been so crazy lately there's just no time to let it all sink it so its all been sort of brushed aside. Maybe its better this way, just bury bury bury the hatchet and hope i'll forget it then maybe everything will be okay again.

It all begins again tomorrow. MONDAY!

Week 4!!!!! I'm so sad that week 4 is ending - its been almost too good a week. Stressland's getting better. I hope this lasts! I haven't felt this happy in a while :D

Stressland so far hasn't really gotten any better. But somewhere deep deep deep down i guess i still sort of love it despite EVERYTHING hehe. I've never been this worn out. I think i've never felt more helpless and inept. I keep missing the holidays and missing my friends and being worry-free. So thank God for the friends! There's probably no one who understands me better than jac now. Leow too. The old friends who i can always fall back on no matter what! And there's geri and iain, with whom friendship has already blossomed to be something quite not-normal hehe... extraordinary even ;) and not to forget jiaxin, wanjing, chris, wuch and the bunch of people who have so far made life here in smu so much more bearable.

Smuggers woohoo!