Fast-forward two weeks please - I have no idea how I'm gonna be able to cope till then :(

So. So. So tired. And I haven't even started on preparation for the tests at all, just doing all the homework we have. Lately life has been revolving around school and nothing else. Not that it hasn't been all fun with vday and what not, but I'm all ready to take a break with the march holidays looming near!

I miss bus rides with Abc to cityhall and we'll watch the world walk by while savouring azabu sabo ice cream. I miss all the pepper lunch detox sessions(hahaha) with Jac, Hwee and the other girls almost every thursday last year. And most of all, I miss hanging out during the holidays - long hours spent at starbucks when they sold the christmas special toffeenut latte, poring over books in kinokuniya and borders... with amazing company everytime. I miss the many dinners at east coast and siglap and our long walks to bus stops, our movie dates and failure bowling games. I miss hunting around in concourse and beach road and long bus wait(more than 45 minutes and we couldn't get on because it was too packed, we were both ready to throttle iris) on new year's eve, and not-really-studying at bugis the next day hahaha. I miss preparing for orientation. I miss the car rides Jon would take me on. I miss the movie marathons Dee and I would go on where we'd binge on lots of food and feel lazy and happy. I could go on forever!

I miss I miss I really miss it all :) Just the freedom of having the entire day free. The kind where there's no need to plan, days which work out when everything is done on impulse and spontaneously. Ahhhhh and when common tests are over. We'll have one glorious glorious week of that!

Love makes the world go round

Valentine's and celebrating ABC's 18th birthday yesterday at school was splendid! :D Flowers of all kinds, pretty handmade gifts and cards, chocolates, Sulin's truffles, brownies and yummy macaroons... it was just such a happy day and so very much fun and love to share. I love my class especially my favourite girls, I love the Igorians, I love my locker and my locker-mate, I love how early school ends, I love giving out stuff and receiving things back, I love sentimental messages and nice phonecalls, I love hugs, I love feeling loved - which was for most part how I felt yesterday. But there we go. Its over already. And I'm not sure if there's anything to look forward to any time soon. Sob.

Happy Valentine's Day.

I had such an awful day :( :( :(

I'm not gonna write you to stay

School today was pointless pointless pointless - no no I'm not complaining at all because I had lots of fun! CNY 'party' during math(which was really no math) this morning with ABC raving madly over the pineapple tarts haha before we had 2 blissful hours of break. We decorated our locker with magazine cutouts and funny post-sticks, mooched around eating(I found a gummy in my favourite butter rice I wonder how), before we left for a little trip round the school and even had the time to fit in some facebooking! Hahaha and during GP we watched a movie. As if that wasn't already enough, history lecture got cancelled and ta-dah! The day was over and I zoomed off to Suntec.

Can't believe its A' levels this year. The mood has not set in at all, even though common tests are just two weeks away!! Hahaha I'm just really enjoying school :D :D :D I really didn't expect J2 to be like this. I imagined stress levels being so high I'd go home everyday with bloodshot eyes(ok no, but I thought I'd feel.. I don't know, less relaxed and more disciplined) and I thought during school they'd drill us like crazy but it hasn't been the case at all. Haha. But its better this way. I'd rather have a memorable last year at school than one spent with my nose buried in books. Heh.

3 seconds of wonderful, and then...

Weird. This morning I woke up all clear-headed. Maybe it was the whole cleaning inbox rampage I went on last night. Very liberating. Or maybe it was that last blast I woke up to find early this morning blinking on my trusty nokia. Or maybe its the sudden realization that you can't really lose what you've never had. And I never had it, I'm sure of that now. Whatever the case - I'm done with it! Today's a good day :D I can feel it in my bones!

(I hope this optimism lasts.)

Oh and a13 girls I miss you all so!

Save me

So this must be the millionth time this week I'm slapping a hand to my forehead and replaying some painful moment over and over in my head for the thousandth time - I have realised I have absolutely no will power. At all. Funny how in primary school I remember quite clearly I was given the most-determined award or something along those lines and I had to wear this little badge on my collar. Pfffffft. I wonder where all of that went because right now it seems like everything I resolve to do(or more like what not to do) ends up being bull-dozed by my stupid, stupid impulsive self. And of course only then do I start regretting big-time. Gah!!!

Having annoying thoughts like this running through your head all day is what happens when you've stuffed your face with lots of cute-looking yummy little tarts - no no not pineapple ones(those I nibble the crust and then shove the weird orangey centre things into Jon's mouth haha) and spend the almost the entire afternoon zoning out in front of bad tv. Vertical Primates on channel 5 at noon was too painful to watch! But I'm at my Godpa's now and yay thank goodness guests are starting to come over. And I better go :D

Happy CNY everyone. Ha.

Dodging people at dhoby and travelling all the way to siglap today with Hweetos was fun :D and reunion dinner was a simple but really nice affair and its one of those nights I sit in my room poring over magazines listening to good music and feeling all contented looking at the pictures and random scraps of paper plastered on my wall. I'm really tired but I feel so restless and its Chinese New Year already - so in a few hours I won't be broke anymore! Haha and I can't wait to don the new outfits and mingle... (smirks). Its the time of the year where I also learn to be tolerant hahaha. Cross my fingers. And my toes. Here goes!

Here's celebrating Pfluggy our responsible CT rep's birthday at OUR A13 table in school today :D Happy Birthday Daniel!

Bummer

50 days of really high highs and really low lows, one hostile bus ride today, advice from two best friends and a single wash-out list later, I think its finally time to STOP fighting this lost cause.

:(

Call me a freak, but I just spent the last two hours watching the french revolution on the history channel in front of the telly. Very fascinating I might add :) I guess I'm the sort that watches anything on tv even price is right or days of our lives - which I was really reminded of when Duchess of Malfi was screened during lit lecture today hahaha. But I'm still not feeling too good and I'm glad tomorrow's the last school day for the week..

I miss you.

Daytime friends and night-time fools

Just got back home from the barbecue with the a13 girls and despite the awful weather - it just wouldn't stop raining - I had a fantastic time :D It was so much fun grilling the food under umbrellas and eating it all later seated around a pillar, laughing so hard especially over the gazillion photographs(which I'll upload when I can) we took and the four of us with our plaited hair and singing cheesy cheena songs. And I topped the night off well too hanging out with Dom. But then I started thinking about stuff I don't wanna think about(like how I'm the ULTIMATE loser when it comes to certain things) and the awful weather really got to me. Right now I feel sick and as lousy as er. Fruitcake. Or red and blue M&Ms and gross grape mentos!

Ok gonna go sleep now and get better soon. I don't want to spend next week under covers all sniffy and not being able to eat the good stuff!

you've lost that lovin' feeling

Weekend's here! And chinese new year is only a few days away. Ang paos, yummy goodies and ba-kwa, new clothes, catching up with close friends and so much more - whats not to love? :D