Spin me around

Don't know what to expect! Crazy roommates haha, non-stop camera snapping, shopping and food madness... oh and the showdown between slow shoppers (the As ftw!) and the fast ones. Less than 24 hours to departure, but my brain is in some incoherent hazy state, and i have this checklist post stick which i haven't ticked anything off yet. I am tired, but too excited to really get any rest... and i'm yet to finish packing. My mum is raising her eyebrows at what i'm bringing(if i look weird you guys better be going down with me!), while my dad told me to unpack half my luggage haha. Love this pre-trip excitement, but i hate how my entire mind is in chaos now and my room one big mess.

Now though just can't wait to zip up the baggage, shut my eyes and wake up real early, have big breakfast at macs with jon when he sends me to the airport, and spend the next five days with some of my favourite people.. although there's really a lot i'll be missing :)

Ready, get set.. to jet-set! Heh!

My hankerchief encounter!

I think loss solidifies the place of something held close to the heart, and then emptiness sets in with absence and thats when its just awful. Sometimes i feel very tired, sometimes i feel quite hopeful, and then i feel a little sad.. but i think the ambiguity of all these confusing emotions - while it may not equate to happiness, the energy in itself altogether is really not so different. Heh? So its all not too bad :) let whatever will be will be.

Almost paradise!

MC got me the best socks in the world all the way from korea with jihoo's faces on them and i feel so happy :D :D :D Team jihoo! And today was a blast with mahjong at jac's den and then i think we tore down ichiban sushi with our loud tv talk and singing. Hello a13 girls you guys are so funny and i love you all!

2 magical words

Yesterday night was one of those nights when i was lying in my bed at 3 am, feeling awfully tired but too happy to sleep :) i finally got a sat night off in the longest time and i think i really forgot how great weekends can be.



The second pic was funny because it was js' birthday but he isn't even in the picture hahaha... and i got to meet lydia and alvin who just had his first book out for our favourite prata later that night!

I am looking forward to... to retaining my title as mahjong queen tomorrow haha and drama fest and meeting mc, rollerblading, prawning on wednesday, getting to use bugsy, packing for taiwan, taiwan.. and a whole lot more next week heh. I also can't wait to rave about jihoo with annabelle haha and try to get neutral jac to cross over to the brighter side! And i'll be desperately trying to stay off paopaochar because i am going to have it every meal when we're there!!! Haha.. and all these in between working 4 nights next week. Yay. Just 9 days to taiwan now!

LOUSY

'Horrible', 'meiyouyong', 'waste of talent', 'you are your worst enemy'.. and on and on he goes, shaking his head and tsking! I tell you, HE is my worst enemy. I don't think i've ever been in such close proximity to a person and stopping myself from reaching over to throttle him. My driving instructor! He makes me want to huff and puff and die already. As if i can help being kanchiong.. this is only my seventh lesson! What does he expect me to do, weave in and out of tiny squashed lanes seamlessly like an expert? Isn't it normal to garbla sometimes, especially when the situations can be so unexpected and nerve-racking.

Sigh so much for driving lessons! And for travelling all the way to tampines every week. Like today. In the heat. In a cab! Because the bus took forever to come and i didn't want to miss a minute with him - and then when i'm with him i feel like scum. And he managed to end the lesson with 'i have high hopes in you' haha while i felt like a sad sponge. I'm a terrible case of nerves.. and i really wish he'd help me out by not making me feel worse and instead maybe we can cultivate a better instructor-learner relationship :@ :@ :@

Haha on a lighter note, congrats hwee on passing!! I'm so happy for you and i wish i could be in your position right now and here's to conquering evil mean drivers on the road and evil instructors too hahaha.

Today we celebrated lois's birthday! And we wore barney party hats and stuck the fiesta cheese cake with 19 candles and got her daisies too :D and over sushi, while reminiscing about peirce for the 1000th time, lois reminded us how in sec 1 mr j would shout 'on your feet....up!' and then we had to bounce up from the hard parade square cement floor, punch the air and roar in unison 'PEIRCE!'

Hahaha... that was all just so lame. I remember feeling so stupid every time we were forced to repeat it until we got it right. Funnily enough, sometimes i just kind of wish i could get the chance to be transported right back to those early mornings again and do it all just once more. Sigh. Even with pay and all the good job perks work can't be compared to school at all haha.

Alaska bomb!

Daddy's birthday dinner earlier this april, and my brother's girlfriend serene came too! My dad doesn't care much for birthdays, so we forced this on him... and we all caught shinjuku incident in the cinemas afterwards - our first trip to the cinema together in the longest time. I spent nearly the whole show with my hands over my eyes and feeling a little lightbulbish in between my parents and jon and serene. But it was fun. Heh. I love my family especially on days like these when we are all not irritable :D

Better days

I feel like a mess of squiggly doodles these days, colourful but kinda confused and random. Lately its been pretty great, more ups than downs... at moments time just seems to be crawling by, i'm fitting in so much into each day by the weekend i always find myself surprised that its only been one week in between. But its been so much fun. Still sometimes i feel like i'm wilting away, as if i'm waiting for something big to come along and sweep me up so i'll get caught up in the excitement of it all and feel all :D :D :D

And do 'just because's really exist? I wish i knew!

No more menmenbules

I wonder why is it that when something great is going on for me, i don't realise it immediately and when i do, i kinda constantly worry that it is only temporary. And i'll be afraid that it might go away. But when something sad happens, it always hits me right away and hits me hard. Then the best sort of therapy for me is to go on some long bus ride haha and listen to ipod.

But its always best to bury the hatchet, not mope over it and try to feel happy. Even when there's a reason to be unhappy, now my mantra/motto/whatever appropriate word (haha abc!) is to block out whatever lousy thoughts and haha go to my happy place - i.e for now azabu sabo strawberry icecream! I am the anti-emo.

Methinks

Five things on my mind right now:

1) Strawberry! Strawberry ice cream, strawberry chocolate, strawberry milk, strawberry yoghurt drink, strawberry anything! :D

2) That... if i really really want something, do i have to fight for it? But if its meant to be, it will happen anyway, right? Mind-boggling!

3) Goong. When i'm watching it its like i'm transported into this happy place... sheesh i love happy endings i really do.

4) Humming 'bleeding love' hahaha

5) Abc, hwee and my super april fool's prank muahahaha it was so funny even though i sort of ruined it by laughing so hard. But number one! Really! Yay us! And yay for successful taiwan planning... i'm thinking of what to pack already!

Ok gotta go. The next couple of weeks are going to be quite packed... haha i'll be working more which i'm actually looking forward to. And i hope ucas and nus get back to me. I hate being suspended in this state of limbo. But at least the applications are finally all done haha no more uneasy weight on my shoulders anymore.

I just hope i'm knocking on the right doors!

Who needs shelter from the sun?

Standing in the grass at 12 am playing ball, going to bishan park to fly a kite at 9pm, late-night casuarina prata and chomp chomp fixes.. peirce people numero uno! :)

I really, really do.

1 thing 2 say 3 words 4 you - i miss you.