Car-crash of a heart

Maybe by monday, i'll be able to successfully maneuver the car the s course, the crank course, vertical and parallel park without a glitch, navigate through ubi's crazy roads calmly. The clutch will be my bestfriend, and every gear change will feel like adrenaline coursing through my veins. Oh! I will also not accumulate more than 20 points, and i will not forget any one of the one million things which constitutes immediate failure. Take a look at the assessment checklist if you don't know what i mean. Its a freaking minefield, designed to shatter the already fragile form of confidence we sad learner drivers possess.

Who am i kidding? I need a miracle to happen. Haha. Sob.

Stranger to this feeling

Does anyone feel like their world is shifting? Somehow i feel like everything's gone kind of topsy-turvy, there are so many changes taking place so suddenly i feel all wobbly. We're in the middle of the year, and i know i've complained how this year has been all about waiting (& waiting & waiting), but now everything's flooding in and i feel like i'm caught in a whirlpool of confusion and excitement. Or whatever. Hahaha how should i put it? It isn't a bad thing, it feels a little like starting the engine of a stalled car. I'm just reluctant and maybe just lazy to have to adjust.. new school, new way of travelling to school, new computer.. new groups of people. Once it all starts changing i may be so caught up in it i won't actually realise it. But thats the saddest thing! I don't wanna ever forget. I don't want any goodbye to ever really be a goodbye. And i hope that when things are different, i'd still be able to have deedays, hear funk soul brother as fengshui brother haha.. take mop-like pictures with the girlies, morning phone calls with ly, have time for prata with the peirce gang, and visit pris su wherever she decides to fly. Squabble with jon, with dom. Be with my family. Crave tao-huay, fly kites, stay happy. I hope i won't have to compromise anything i love or anything i believe in.

Its a dog-eat-dog world! Haha life is tough. Suck it up!!!!!!

Igor takes flight

But what goes up must come down!


'And when they say i'm just a terrible kite
You'll tell them you're proud of my marvelous flight'

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BALI!

Don't know what i was expecting, but i think i expected things to be as clear as bali's cloudless blue skies (on most days anyway) when i got back! 5 days of sunshine, gorgeous sunsets, endless beaches, yummy indo food and sometimes agonising but nonetheless great family time; things are still as murky as the sea water is here. Haha. I am.. still both nervous and excited for uni, i am also still very sad over the thought of everyone going on their own separate ways, i am even more dreading jon enlisting and my PT date, and most of all, i am absolutely not any closer to banishing any negative thoughts! :(





Oh but i miss bali already.

Work!

I extended my contract at work. I mulled over it for the longest time, weighing the pros and cons and wondering what's the best thing to do.. a horror process for an indecisive person like me. Hahaha and even now i'm still not sure if signing my name on the dotted line (effectively keeping me as an employee until december). How in the world am i gonna be able to juggle the on set of uni life plus cca plus the heavy school workload plus work!? Ok typing it down here makes me wanna run back to human resources and beg them to let me take the contract back. Haha. Or not. I guess i made the decision to stay 90% for sentimental reasons - which isn't the smartest thing to do, but when have i ever been practical anyway? Sitting here in my cubicle, in front of this screen, simultaneously eating my melting mcflurry and waiting for the pages to come through and also lj-ing.. and having just come back from a semi fun dinner with yuling, melvyck and ian; its all starting to feel kinda familiar. I just can't let it all go so easily. Sure i still screw up nearly everyday, and i am still a noob at all this meticulous pagination stuff, but hey! When i'm dying from school and ready to kill myself for not ending the contract earlier, at least then i know its time to give this gig up. Heh. Whew. So my choice is to have no choice. Haha. Lets see how this turns out :S

Happily clock-watching

What's worse than being indecisive is being impatient, because the combination of both traits usually leads to doing things impulsively, which almost always leads to making wrong choices. Maybe thats why i'm probably more likely to just let things fall into place by themselves, drift drift drift and somehow or another find my way into everything... rather than confidently stepping in one direction when i come to a cross road and asserting myself in every decision. I'm always afraid of lousy consequences. I guess i sub-consciously make up my mind, in the end i kinda discover that i'm happy anyway. And because of all that i tend to become sort of detached, happier to let things flow.. but sometimes its really tiring just waiting, especially when what you're waiting for is never clearly defined. Sheesh! :( :)

Journey to the west

On wednesday, the east-side and semi east-side girls all headed to jurong for a little exploring since it is far away from where we always go. After our super salty ramen lunch, we h1 three got to sit on the most humungous arm chair ever hehe and went mad being trigger-happy while meiyi jac and hwee got their nails done. Walked around jurong point and got kinda lost, and after bubble tea we all squeezed into hwee's cute car and made our way back to the east, conquering nearly all the highways in the process hahaha :) the four of us kiddies squashed at the back for an hour, while in front jac worked the gps while hwee drove. I am convinced that jac can win amazing race on her own! And i'm looking forward to more wednesdays together! Pictures from meiyi vera and hwee.

On low low days, the one person you need is the one that knows how to fill empty but not awkward silences with Queet Queet. But today.. the people i always thought i'd count on to save the day are somehow even more conspicuously absent :(

Lucky stars!

So blessed so blessed so blessed!!! And i can't believe this is happening to me. Gosh haha.. but i'm also very very scared. Nevermind, one step at a time.. here i go hehe :)

Is rocks :)

5 days of insane running about with 5 other mad girls haha in taiwan, which is kind of a messy city but i like how it has so much character. Just about everything about it was vibrant heh from the bright lights and the whole urban thing it has going on, the crowded streets, chinese chatter, the really nice people, easy transport and food everywhere. And the funny signs and the weather with the right amount of sunshine (for me anyway) and breeze! Our See You Hotel was a great place to stay too, uber cool and comfy. We did about a million things everyday, but i really enjoyed every minute of it.

People ask me to tell them about taiwan, and i usually can't think of anything except to say it was the best fun ever. Hahaha which doesn't say very much but it really was just so so so fun. Everything was fun!














There was never a dull moment. From hwee's wrestling with her foldable chair - which i think it almost won haha, leow's birdie wings, jac's power at climbing stairs and what not, and the model roomies vera and abc.. even the sian shopping at wufenpu which got us all a little high from being jaded and to using hyperboles (this is SO cute! haha) to some of the crazy nights we spent with the masks and gansta shots. Policeman encounter, beatboxers, singing songs together, cute canto couple.. I really really loved this trip! Not just everything we did saw ate heard felt but definitely because you guys were just amazing travel buddies :D

In all i think this getaway came at just the right time; with all the indecisive stress over uni peaking, work beginning to get kinda tiresome, plus all the restlessness of this slow slow no-school life pace. Even though its all over... (hear this reverberate on your com screens!?!?) it really isn't! Because i didn't feel that sianness that usually comes with the end of holiday, only just imagining the many more good trips to come. HEH.

'baby hai bin toh ah?' :) where is our next trip going to be!

Its really over!!! (or not hehe)

It was such a blast, five whole days of crazy crazy fun - i'm still quite giddy from everything and really tired in a good way. I had the best 5 days crammed with mad picture taking, a lot of indulging in food and clothes, and all those (as abc would say) weird-ass hilarious moments... but most importantly, the 5 of you who made this trip just too awesome. I LOVE TAIWAN! TAIWAN TOUCHED MY HEART!

Hwee jac abc leow vera wo ai ni men!!!! But now in the meantime its back to this sad sad life when i wake up haha. No really, i'm gonna miss french toast for breakfast and watching mtv in a dazed mode when i wake up. I already miss just going a little nuts before we sleep at night with you guys!

Spin me around

Don't know what to expect! Crazy roommates haha, non-stop camera snapping, shopping and food madness... oh and the showdown between slow shoppers (the As ftw!) and the fast ones. Less than 24 hours to departure, but my brain is in some incoherent hazy state, and i have this checklist post stick which i haven't ticked anything off yet. I am tired, but too excited to really get any rest... and i'm yet to finish packing. My mum is raising her eyebrows at what i'm bringing(if i look weird you guys better be going down with me!), while my dad told me to unpack half my luggage haha. Love this pre-trip excitement, but i hate how my entire mind is in chaos now and my room one big mess.

Now though just can't wait to zip up the baggage, shut my eyes and wake up real early, have big breakfast at macs with jon when he sends me to the airport, and spend the next five days with some of my favourite people.. although there's really a lot i'll be missing :)

Ready, get set.. to jet-set! Heh!