A heavy heart

These days everything seems to be passing by so quickly but yet at the same time its just kinda creeping along. Don't really know how i'm spending my days - haha i am trying to study i guess but its really really hard, and its seems like sometimes the more i do the stress builds up because i discover there's so much i actually don't know. Which isn't a good feeling haha with history paper one less than three weeks away! YIKES. And yeah and i've never been the kind to work well under pressure. Plus its so easy to get distracted by the smallest things... which probably explains why when i was studying with lydia today she looked as if she was about to murder me haha with my yakking but heh.

I miss school though, i miss the routine of school things and of not being too stressed like now. The past week with the lessons in school and what not was okay, but haha its different it just doesn't feel the same. And i've been feeling tired from the monotony of just mugging and trying to mug yada yada. There's not much to look forward to either. I've just been in a moodless kind of mood if you know what i mean :)

Ahh ok im just gonna log off. Haha good luck studying everyone! And a13 girls if you guys are dying like i am... don't forget we're 'all in this together' like vera said. We can do it! Like how mama cheese always says, gambatte!! <3

I heart VJC

Farewell assembly last friday!




I feel so blessed to be part of this school - to be in such a great class, to have known some of the closest friends i have in the past two years here, to have made so many wonderful memories. For all the times at our class table (the legacy must live on!) in the canteen and in the concourse and up on the treehouse; for all the times i dozed off in class and in lectures and in the library haha. For the late nights spent in school, the afternoon swim training sessions, the lazy lazy h1 math breaks... for the spontaneous and funny teachers, for all the crowded assemblies in the hall. For the chicken wings and vitasoy in the canteen and er er 'laptop' haha. For all the events and match support and mass dances. For the Victorian spirit. From the early morning bus rides to the evening jam home, 5 days a week for almost two years.. i loved nearly every moment in between. There's so much more - its been incredible. Words just can't sum it all up, but really truly VJ is just an amazing school :D

Nil Sine Labore!

No.50

Sigh today after the dinner Abc and i finally got around to getting our dear locker no.50 (even till now i still somehow always attempt to unlock no.54 instead haha) and it felt so sad in a sentimental kinda way :( and we just had to take pictures although we did get laughed at by a certain member of our korea gang.. haha. I guess its lame but it really means a lot!

It feels like just yesterday we were putting photographs on the inside and cutting embarrassing pics from magazines.. Remember we crossed out vanessa ann hudgens? Hahaha that was at the beginning of this year. So not only did we change the locks - because a key lock never worked with us we lost the key quite a few times, our locker also got progressively messier. Very messy, we even spotted an insect inside today! Our puika cheer is still there too! From storing our old tee-shirts and shoebags and lit books and expired sweets.. dear no.50 also gave us so many memories. Like being locker neighbours with hwee and jac and sticking anonymous post-sticks on their doors. Haha ok i am really lame. But i'm gonna miss it.. i guess the end of jc is really almost here.

Vday with number 50.


And now! Oddly depressing, or maybe because it was so dark at night. And Abc looks so sad!


And Abc you're the best locker buddy in the world! I love you and stuff like our bk chit-chat today and weird moments on the bus and all our h1 times with vera too.. :D there's so much more i've really shared some of my favourite moments in vj with you. Thanks for understanding me being messy. And for never finding me too crazy or weird.. i think. Hahaha i love you!

Ok whew last day ever of normal school tomorrow with farewell assembly. Sad sad sad sad sad sad sad haha :( i have so much to say i don't even know where to start. I really am going to miss school. Ahh better get going i'm so tired... goodnight!

Do you remember?

Sometimes there are certain dates i sort of sit up and take note of, not so much in anticipation more like just remembering the significance of it. Haha like maybe it would be different from all the other random everydays.. as if i'm expecting something to happen. But then when the day comes i hardly notice it and everything just takes place as per normal and i don't realise it until its nearly midnight when the day's come to an end. Thats when i feel a little surprised. I don't know why.. I guess its really true that time just passes by so quickly and life just goes on that everything falls into place by itself. Its been a great year :) so different from 2007 - which was amazing as well but in a different way.. whew its already farewell assembly this friday! Vj is so awesome i really really won't wanna be in anywhere else but here :D

When the sun shines we'll shine together

Haha the past few days have been awesome :D i mean really since history paper finished on tuesday life has begun again (hahaha even if it is only temporary) and i've finally gotten to do everything almost guilt-free that i missed during the prelim period! Got to eat my prata and lots of ice cream too, got to excessively watch tv and go to the movies, got to go shopping, got to go for happy dinners, got to finally soak up the sun again at sentosa with dee cycling and stuff and then at botanic gardens with lydia, meeting up with the girls and dom as well as chilling out in coffee places and just hanging around in bookshops!

Sentosa with dee was so much fun.



And at the gardens with ly! So hot both days. But i love the sun. Even though i'm burnt and peeling haha.


My mum is getting a bit worried though at the rate i'm going though which she hardly ever is so i better take note. Haha i guess now i am too so its back to hitting the books soon! Cross all my fingers and my toes - hopefully the next and last (!! hurray) phase of studying will be the pen-ultimate one.. it has to be haha just one last time.

Ok bleaaahhh off to watch that stupid tear-jerker mc got me hooked on :)

Chiquitita

Prelims are over and boy does it feel good :D :D :D really really really good! It felt great today just hanging out after history paper in town, doing nothing at all but just slouching around and eating and drinking coffee and talking non-stop. Also getting scolded for being anti-social with MC's mini tv heh. And we ended it the best way - watching mama mia at the movies! Jac, Vera, Meiyi and i came out of the cinema and we were just beaming away and bopping (a little crazily) with the tunes stuck in our head and it was just so delightful laughing throughout the whole movie... even if jac seemed as if she wanted to smack me at some parts hahaha. But oh i loved it from start till end, great fun just watching it and all the happy songs heh!

Yes my 7 chiquititas, i love you girls very much. The past few weeks have been crazy with all the mugging and we haven't been around each other as much haha i missed it a whole lot. Glad that prelims are finally over, don't know how it'd be like going through the entire horrid thing without you guys.. haha mc and meiyi's phonecalls, the text messages, and studying together and everything, even just smiling at each other when every paper ends! We've made it past prelims. Now its just a levels to go.

I'm already looking forward to tomorrow, spending the day with dee and not in j8 for once haha! OK i am still meeting her there but its off for a day under the sun and i can't wait. Somehow although prelims were over just like that in a flash, during the past week time sort of seemed to come to a standstill and i was just dying for it to end. Now i get my life back for a little while wheeeee.

There's this thing about movies and songs, it kinda gets your thoughts rolling a little and i'm in the kinda spaced-out mood now that the night's coming to an end.. guess i'm getting tired. Off to bed now :)

Goodnight everyone.

The way it unfolds is yet to be told

Strange that prelims are just next week - yes sort of reality isn't it? That THE end is looming pretty close, and in no time we'll be taking the a levels... kinda surreal but yeah, there just seems so much to do.

I'm stressed i guess but things are going pretty okay i'm feeling quite upbeat :D even though the start of this chiongster week was marred by a horrible stomach flu and i couldn't do much but lie in bed reading the lit texts, and even though history is absolutely a pain to study with a zillion things to memorise, i've been surprisingly well heh, happy. Not skip-skip happy but the kind of happy that chases the worries from studying away! And that's enough for me.

The stress does get to me sometimes i suppose, like when i'm in coffeebean or mosburger and the words suddenly seem like a blur and i feel like tearing my hair out.. but i'm okay. I am okay! I'll be okay!

I love my study buddies. Dee, Lydia.. and of course my tuition mates Meiyi and Abc :D thanks for all the times we encourage each other, stress each other, pig out together, worry together... don't know what i'll do without you guys!

Wish i could take it back, but its over

Hello last teachers day ever, seems like these days i'm getting even more afraid of time passing by..

Anyway its one year since last year :(

Its been really gloomy lately, with my life revolving around studying sob and the weather being so dreary - not that i mind the rain because i'm stuck indoors ANYWAY, trying to study, not studying and stressing out! Sure sounds like fun haha so basically nothing much to look forward to but i do get cheap thrills in between.

Studying out most of the time, somehow when i'm at home i kind of come to resemble some kind of slug and do nothing but slump around procrastinating and what not. At least when i'm out i get to come up with evil names for the coffeebean managers with dee heh when we were together yesterday. We were both really stressed and everything but the moment we had dinner and what else but yamiyoghurt and starting laughing so hard and talking we almost forgot that we're in the midst of studying for prelims :D

Ahh ok going to meet abc and meiyi for tuition now, tomorrow's teacher's day looking forward to going back to school! Although i like sleeping a little bit more everyday i miss seeing everyone everyday. And maybe might hopefully get to go back to peirce see the teachers, the old canteen aunties and uncles and heh everyone especially mel, ly, lois - the history girls and chris and dan and philbert and a whole long list of people i miss so very much!

It was a really really really nice night out with the girls celebrating Hwee's birthday earlier tonight :D for a few hours it was great seeing Hwee so happy - we love you! And also together talking, taking pictures, eating and laughing... somehow when i was on my way home i kinda felt a little down haha because it was so nice chilling out even just for a while and then knowing its right back to studying again tomorrow just sucks. But yeah! Happy Birthday Hwee really hope you had a wonderful special eighteenth!

Phelps! I'm drowning

Drowning in everything i'm supposed to be studying, that is :D And the olympics is a major distraction i can watch just about everything and zone out completely in front of the tv when its on! Like Abc said its so surreal how at the very moment the olympic swimmers are getting ready to plunge in for their races we're stuck in the lecture hall and just going about our daily school lives haha. Today in the treehouse with the Vera and Abc while waiting for the h2s was nice heh we just sort of bummed around up there with the nice cool breeze and singing songs and talking.. haven't been there in quite a while but yeah! Its moments like these you just sort of forget about everything that's been going on and hahaha it really feels good.

Ahh anyway studying in school lately has proved more effective than anywhere else... just wondering how long more can thaipan food sustain us haha and thankful for the crazy moments when we're tired of studying that gets the stress away - haha like the sketches today really cracked me up and the girls when they're so funny sometimes. I'm so tired though but gotta keep going gotta keep going!

There's been quite a bit going on lately for me i can't help but feel sort of heavy-hearted.. not just little things that get me down but just feeling weighed down by the stress as well. And feeling lousy when there are certain things i can't do. Boo :(

Sigh yeahhhh another week coming to an end its thursday again tomorrow. Wish time wouldn't pass so quickly!! Alrighty getting tired i'd better go.

One of the reasons why i love j8 (haha ok hwee i can imagine you rolling your eyes now) is because there's always a chance of bumping into someone familiar there. Its just like that with the peirce people especially since so many of them go to schools down the red mrt line and i hardly ever get to see them! I love meeting audrey there the way we do every week - even though we do everything the same way we've done it since last year. Study at coffeebean after school or training, drink iced vanilla latte, then dinner, yami yoghurt and the usual movie in between all of that. And its become so familiar, so part of my weekly routine i'm going to miss it so much like next year when we don't actually have to force ourselves to study anymore haha. When i'm with dee everything seems like a laugh even when it isn't haha and i really need that in times like these when the stress can really get to me. But today was different and especially nice because mel and lois were passing by and we soon sorta just found ourselves catching up with each other and and and... just a whole combination of happy cheery stuff :D Ly joined us afterwards as well. It just felt so homely and happy makes me really miss our yellow shirt and grey skirt and the multi-coloured walls.

Its just that its been nearly two years since i've left peirce and still yet everything really stays close to my heart. Ahhh! I'm so happy tonight.

Bumped into kerri (again haha second time in two days!) and kevin as well which was real nice and even the "teapot". Which i may add i seem to see everywhere. EVERYWHERE!

Haha alright its getting kinda late i'm awfully tired.. gonna head to bed. School's over for this week, its been great as it always is. Its a long weekend ahead hoping to get loads of stuff done and not procrastinate.. quoting SS my dear captain who just told me today 'keep up the faith in these dark dark times' (haha such a cute ss thing to say) and i will i definitely will! Even though times are not really dark haha i guess he's referring to the amount of studying we've to do... but yeah! Keep the faith!

I'm babbling - right off to sleep goodnight!