2 days short of 22 months ago i think today was a day i anticipated and maybe even for a long time afterwards, something i knew and cherished to know. But hush-hush things like that, all these secret hopes and memories that are kept eventually melt away into the whirl of everyday life. I don't think they are forgotten, but then again, when once in while they surface, it does command wistful feelings... so yes, i remember march 18, and today i remembered its january 17th, but it hardly matters anymore. And i really can't believe life has turned out like this.

SH and i are en route to a perfect 10 months, and sometimes i feel scared because the scariest thing is the future, right? We never know what to expect. But the best thing about SH is knowing that he's my pillar of strength everyday... he'll never melt away even in the hustle and bustle of shitty smu life. And the best i can do is always be my best for him, hoping he'll do the same too. The memories I have aren't secrets for me to keep, but to share. No more having to harbour secret crushes, because hello SH! I love you so much, and i get to tell you that everyday, see you everyday, love you more and more each day :)