There are too many things i wish i could say

Everyday i feel like i'm drifting away from everything i've been anchored to, as if all my hopes, my wishes and dreams that i've been holding so close to my heart since last year is breaking away bit by bit. And i feel too helpless a midst all these changes.. i'm watching it all happen and i can't seem to stop it. I'm being sucked into the too-quick smu pace, swirling in its rapids, drowning in these huge waves. I feel like i'm on a dissipating cloud nine and it really sucks so bad :(