When we went to send hwee off at the airport, i felt like a crumbling cookie :( i think i've been trying desperately to shove whatever negative thoughts right to the back of my mind, but i guess yesterday i kinda just missed how things used to be and even worse jac and i just couldn't stop the waterworks. And i think we've been holding it all in, but its just almost too much to take. I'm really really really tired... and there's just no way i can exaggerate how bad it gets sometimes. There's really no light at the end of this tunnel and i'm stumbling with each step i take.

Help needed.